[Verse 1]
First kiss, down by the beach
Seventeen, sand stuck to our feet
You looked at me like I was gold
Said, "Don't be scared, just lose control"
We carved our names in the wood
You said we'd come back, we never would
You were already chasing skies
Even then, I saw the flight in your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
And I stayed right where we began
While you became more sky than man

[Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t catch
Too high, too far, too fast
You left and I stayed small
But I still hear you when I fall
I say I’ve let it fade with time
But I saw you again at twenty-nine
And just like that, I broke in two
I still love you, and I always do

[Verse 2]
I saw you again that autumn night
Ten years gone, but you still felt right
You smiled like the world hadn’t changed
I smiled like I’d done the same
You asked if I still thought of us
I laughed it off, I played it tough
But your voice hit like a wave
Took me straight back to the life we gave

[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you don’t feel it too
But every part of me remembers you

[Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t catch
Too wild to ever come back
You moved on like the wind does
And I’m still choking on your dust
I tell myself I’m doing fine
But I still sleep in what you left behind
It’s been years, but it’s still true
I still love you, and I always do

[Bridge]
That hoodie still lives on my bed
And your name still lives in my head
You kissed me soft, you kissed me sure
And I’ve never felt anything more pure
We were kids with hearts too big
But you were always meant to live
In open skies, not arms like mine
Still, I hoped you'd circle back in time

[Final Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t hold
You left young and you left cold
You came back, but not to stay
Just to haunt me in a brand new way
I pretend that I’ve outgrown
That beach, that look, that kind of home
But you still fly through everything I do
I still love you, and I always do

[Verse 1]
You showed up like you always do
Soft words, fake truth
You said you missed me, said you changed
But I knew better, same old game
You pulled me close, you played it kind
But you were already flying blind
You took my body, left my mind
And vanished right on time

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You didn’t stay, you never planned
I was just something you could land

[Chorus 1]
I don’t need goodbye
You already said enough with your lie
You used my love and left me bare
Then acted like you were never there
You’re the Hawk, you never stay
You leave the second things get grey
You don’t get one more word to try
I don’t need goodbye
To say goodbye

[Verse 2]
You looked me in the eyes and lied
You spoke of Hollie like she'd arrive
A baby name, a future fake
You built a dream just to watch it break
You knew I’d hold on, you knew I’d fall
But you were never there at all
You said “forever,” meant “tonight”
You flew off by morning light

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You gave her name, but not her life
Just words you used to twist the knife

[Chorus 2]
I don’t need goodbye
You don’t deserve another try
You fed me hope, then killed it fast
Now you're just someone in my past
You’re the Hawk who flies alone
Hollie was a lie you’d never own
You don’t get tears, you don’t get why
I don’t need goodbye
To learn to fly

[Bridge]
You called it love, but it was need
You left a scar I didn’t bleed
You spoke her name like it was peace
But it was just your sweet release
I gave it heart, I gave it breath
You gave it silence and regret

[Final Chorus]
I don’t need goodbye
You said it all when you passed me by
I gave you truth, you gave me games
Now I don’t even speak your name
You flew in just to disappear
But I’m still here and crystal clear
No last words, no second cry
I don’t need goodbye
To say goodbye

[Verse 1]
I say I’m fine when they ask me
Smile like I’m strong but it’s empty
He said “forever” then watched me break
Left me with pieces he didn’t take
I fake a laugh and play it cool
But I still ache like love’s a wound
He told me lies that sounded true
Then vanished like they always do

[Pre-Chorus]
They think I’ve moved on and healed
But I’m still stuck on what was real

[Chorus]
I’m still here still holding on
Still pretending nothing’s wrong
He tore me down but I got through
Even if I’m black and blue
I keep my voice calm and clear
But don’t mistake it I’m still here

[Verse 2]
I trusted someone I called him a friend
He waited until the moment would bend
I turned around and just like that
He crossed the line I can’t take back
And Hawk he knew the words to say
Made me believe then walked away
He touched my soul then left it bare
Like I was never really there

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I wear my silence like a shield
But deep inside I never healed

[Chorus 2]
I’m still here I fake my sleep
I’ve got wounds that run too deep
They see strength but they don’t see
The war that’s still inside of me
I keep it quiet disappear
But truth is yeah I’m still here

[Bridge]
I don’t want revenge I just want peace
A quiet mind a little release
They say I’m fine they think I’m free
But I’m still haunted underneath

[Final Chorus]
I’m still here not clean not whole
Still feeling every place he stole
They took so much but not my fire
I’m still alive I still rise higher
He never loved me that’s the scar
But I still breathe no matter how far
I didn’t quit I stayed sincere
I stayed alive I’m still here

[Verse 1]
Woke up feeling fine, made my coffee, had a smile
I put on a playlist that makes me forget for a while
I danced around the kitchen, laughed at nothing real
But then your ghost slid in like a silent reel

[Pre-Chorus]
I tell my friends I’m good now, don’t need you at all
But some nights I still wake up hoping for you to call

[Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m flying so high
Other days I’m drowning in your goodbye
I don’t need you, I swear, then I break
Sometimes I miss you so bad it makes my body ache
I’m fine, I’m wrecked, I’m free, I’m chained
I’m sunshine lost in pouring rain
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Verse 2]
I scroll past your name, heart aches like a stone
Half of me hates you, half can’t leave you alone
I scream into pillows, laugh with a lie
Truth is, I miss you and I don’t know why

[Pre-Chorus]
I tell my friends I’m good now, don’t need you at all
But some nights I still wake up hoping for you to call

[Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m flying so high
Other days I’m drowning in your goodbye
I don’t need you, I swear, then I break
Sometimes I miss you so bad it makes my body ache
I’m fine, I’m wrecked, I’m free, I’m chained
I’m sunshine lost in pouring rain
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Bridge]
You’re the poison and the cure
The crash and the allure
I go hours not thinking about you at all
Then I’m choking on silence, dying to call

[Final Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m finally alright
Other days I’m curled up losing the fight
I don’t need you, I swear, then I fall
Craving the nothing that gave me it all
I’m strong, I’m weak, I stand, I bend
I don’t need you, but even I know that isn’t true
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Outro]
Maybe one day this storm will pass
But tonight, I’m shattered glass

[Verse 1]
You left like it was nothing new
Like I was easy to undo
But you never saw behind my door
The version of me on the floor
You smiled, you laughed, you moved ahead
While I couldn’t even leave my bed
You never saw the sleepless nights
The panic, the pills, the losing fight

[Pre-Chorus]
You tell yourself I just moved on
But I was barely holding on

[Chorus]
You’ll never know how dark it got
The way I broke, the way I lost
You never saw me drown in pain
Hands shaking, screaming out your name
You’ll never feel how cold it stayed
The empty hours, the mess you made
You walked away, you never thought
You’ll never know how dark it got

[Verse 2]
I stopped eating, stopped my friends
Closed the curtains, let it end
I stared at walls for days on end
Thought maybe death was just the mend
You lived your life, you kissed her lips
While I was slipping off the cliffs
I lost my faith, I lost my skin
Fell so far I caved within

[Pre-Chorus]
But you’ll never sit with that regret
You’ll never carry my side of it

[Chorus]
You’ll never know how dark it got
The bathroom floor, the pills I fought
The way my body gave out cold
The nights I prayed to not grow old
You’ll never taste that bitter fear
The silent screams that no one hears
You lived your life, you never thought
You’ll never know how dark it got

[Bridge]
I wish you’d seen behind the door
The lifeless girl you left before
But you were smiling, breathing free
While I was buried underneath

[Final Chorus]
You’ll never know how deep I fell
The silent hell I knew too well
You’ll never see the scars I hide
The part of me that nearly died
You’ll never carry one regret
But I’m still crawling through it yet
You walked away, you never thought
You’ll never know
How dark it got

[Verse 1]
She sat me down with careful eyes
Said, “Tell me the truth, no more disguise”
“Why did he leave? What went wrong?
Why do you look like you’re barely holding on?”
I could’ve told her how you lied
How you broke me down inside
But I bit my tongue, I let it slide
And made her think it’s all my fight

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s easier to take the blame
Than speak the truth and stain your name

[Chorus]
I took the fall so you look clean
Told her you were everything
Said I broke us, pushed you out
Said I filled the space with doubt
I made it sound like you were gold
That I’m the one who lost control
She doesn’t know the wreck, the scars
I took the fall to hide your flaws

[Verse 2]
I told her I was hard to love
Said I gave up when it got tough
Said you were loyal, said you stayed
That I’m the reason you walked away
She bought the story, every word
While I drowned beneath what they heard
It’s easier to break apart
Than let them see my shattered heart

[Pre-Chorus]
I wear the weight, I wear the shame
While you walk free without your name

[Chorus]
I took the fall so you look good
Said I never understood
Blamed myself for all the cracks
While you just smiled and turned your back
I made it easy to believe
That I’m the only one who grieves
She’ll never know how hard you pulled
I took the fall so you look whole

[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll tell the truth
But I still bleed protecting you
It’s easier to lie than face
The way you left me in this place

[Final Chorus]
I took the fall, I let it slide
Buried the wreck you left inside
Told her I was never strong
That I’m the one who did you wrong
But deep down, I know what’s real
The lies you fed, the scars I feel
I hate the weight, but through it all
I took the fall

[Verse 1]
She still thinks you were good for me
Still says I let it go too fast
Tells me maybe you’d forgive me
If I’d just admit my part in the past

She doesn’t know what really happened
Only what I let her believe
And I just smile and let her say it
While I sit with what you did to me

[Pre-Chorus]
I could break it down, say every word
But I’ve carried this too long, and it’s barely worth it

[Chorus]
I’m still holding it
The lie I told to keep you clean
She thinks I wrecked a good thing
Still says I should make it right
Still sees you in a softer light
She doesn’t ask what you took from me
She just wants me to let it be
So I keep holding it

[Verse 2]
I said you stayed, said I gave up
Said I was cold, said you were kind
And now she talks like you were perfect
Like I’m the one who crossed the line

She still believes I should fix it
Still thinks I walked without a fight
And I just let her say your name
Like it doesn’t still keep me up at night

[Pre-Chorus]
You left the mess, I cleaned it up
And I’m the one they think gave up

[Chorus]
I’m still holding it
The version I gave her, soft and neat
While you got to leave discreet
She still thinks I broke your heart
She doesn’t know you tore me apart
So I smile and let her speak
While I keep rotting underneath
Still holding it

[Bridge]
I made it easy for you to go
And she still doesn’t even know

[Final Chorus]
I’m still holding it
Not because you earned my grace
But because I can’t face her face
She still thinks I gave up on love
But I was just surviving you
I took the fall
And she still doesn’t know

[Verse 1]
I’ve spent a year building his name
Told every person I’m the one to blame
I called him good, I called him kind
Said he’s the best I’ll ever find
I said he loved me with his whole heart
That I’m the one who tore it apart
I smiled through every lie I told
Protecting him like solid gold

[Pre-Chorus]
Because if they knew the cracks he made
I’d have to face the mess I became

[Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Told them I’d break him if I could
Said I walked away to save his light
That I’d just ruin him overnight
I praise his name, I guard his face
While I’m the one lost in disgrace
I wear the blame, I choke the truth
I let him go for his own good

[Verse 2]
My best friend asks me why I hide
Why I don’t fight to stay in his life
I tell her he deserves the world
That I’m just poison dressed as a girl
I talk about how much he gave
How hard he fought, how much he stayed
But every word just cuts me deep
‘Cause I know it’s all a lie I keep

[Pre-Chorus]
If they knew the way he let me break
They’d see the love I had was fake

[Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Told them I’d wreck him if I could
Said I walked away to save his light
That I’d just ruin him overnight
I praise his name, I guard his face
While I’m the one lost in disgrace
I wear the blame, I choke the truth
I let him go for his own good

[Bridge]
I could’ve torn his name apart
Exposed the cracks behind his heart
But I held back, I stayed small
Took the fall, protected it all

[Final Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Played the villain like I should
Told the world he never failed
While I unravel, frail, derailed
I call him perfect, I take the shame
Let everyone worship his name
But deep down I know what’s true
He broke me first
But I shielded you

[Verse 1]
You saw me smile, thought I was fine
Like I wasn’t still sinking slow
You thought the dark was done
That maybe I’d really moved on
But I pulled back
Stopped calling, left that gap
You never asked, just let it be
And I never said what he did to me

[Pre-Chorus]
You spent your life catching my fall
I couldn’t let you take it all

[Chorus]
If you knew how bad it got
The nights I drank, how much I lost
If you knew the things he said
The way he fucked with my head
If you saw the cracks I hide
You’d blame yourself for letting it slide
That’s the truth I always protect
Even now, with every breath

[Verse 2]
I lied and said he brought me peace
While he wrecked me piece by piece
Told you love was why I stayed
Not fear, not shame, not getting played
You saw a light, I let it show
For once, you weren’t weighed down, I know
And when it all turned black again
I kept my distance, didn’t come then

[Pre-Chorus]
I wore the mask so you’d be free
From one more weight you didn’t need

[Chorus]
If you knew the nights I cried
The fights I lost, the parts that died
If you knew the truths I bent
So you could breathe, not resent
If you saw the version he broke
The grip, the games, the words he spoke
You’d wonder why I let it slide
But some things, J, I’ll never say

[Bridge]
I needed you to think I healed
Not watch me spiral, raw and real
I needed you to breathe, not fall
Not watch me break, not see it all

[Final Chorus]
If you knew how deep it went
What it cost to just pretend
If you knew how hard I tried
To keep you safe from what’s inside
If you asked, I’d fall apart
Couldn’t even get the words to start
So I just keep on telling you
What I need you to think is true

[Final Line]
But some things, J, I’ll never say

[Verse 1]
You said I was safe with you
Said you'd never walk away
Called me your constant, your home
Then dropped me like dead weight
You said I made you better
Said no one else gets close
Then fucked me over with a smile
Like love was just a joke

[Pre-Chorus]
You said it, over and over
And I was dumb enough to believe
Now I tattoo every word you spoke
As proof you knew how to deceive

[Chorus]
You said you loved me
But you loved control
Said you’d protect me
But left me cold
Said I was different
Then treated me cheap
Fed me your lies
While you fucked me to sleep
You called it real
Now I call it sick
You called it love
But you meant trick
Don’t ever say
You meant it once
You said you loved me
But you just loved what you got

[Verse 2]
You said you'd never lie
But left out half the truth
Said it wasn’t about sex
But still stripped me down for proof
Said I was all you needed
But needed someone else
You didn’t love me
You just loved how I felt

[Pre-Chorus] You wrote me lines like a fucking script
Like it was all rehearsed and clean
But I’ve kept every twisted line
To show them what you really mean

[Chorus]
You said you loved me
But you loved control
Said you’d protect me
But left me cold
Said I was different
Then treated me cheap
Fed me your lies
While you fucked me to sleep
You called it real
Now I call it sick
You called it love
But you meant trick
Don’t ever say
You meant it once
You said you loved me
But you just loved what you got

[Bridge]
I bled for that line
Held on like it mattered
But you were just bored
And I was just shattered
Say it again, I dare you now
Say it slow, so I can laugh out loud

[Final Chorus]
You said you loved me
You swore it was true
But real love doesn’t
Destroy like you do
You said you loved me
What a fucking joke
You loved the damage
You left when you broke
Say it again
Like it means a thing
You said you loved me
But you didn’t feel a thing